Life is full of twists and turns. Mine is no exception.
I had my first spiritual awakening about six years ago. I was living in Brooklyn, working in Manhattan at the time at an ad agency. I was an on the go gal, never really slowing down. I was struggling for a few years with my purpose and knew there was more to life than work but wasn't making the connections with partners enough to illicit moving forward with commitment or with any shared intention of a future.
I spent nights working late, going to bars, eating and drinking with bartenders and strangers. I had fun doing this but it wasn't the same as it was in my 20's when I'd be out with friends catching up on and enjoying life with them. Work was fine but not fulfilling or warranting the need to be a working around the clock.
During the fall of 2014, I was on a whole 30ish type of diet and lost 30 lbs. As of result of me being kinder to my body by not eating a lot of food, (and the foods that didn't work for my body) and by drinking less, I started to feel so much clearer and it increased the power and alertness of my senses. I used to process existence casually by ingesting spirits. When I stopped consuming regularly, it allowed the gateway of my intuition to open up even more.
Suddenly everywhere I went I was met with synchronicities - but more so than the usual rhythm of the average day.
At this time, I had what I would refer to as an awakening period. I will never forget what unfolded over the course of the next six months. I love candles and meditating and even though I think I smoked a joint that night, what unfolded was eerily surreal. My sixth sense opened up and I was communicating with my late maternal grandmother. It was very profound and fascinating at the same time. I was receiving strong messages from her but was unclear exactly why she was visiting me or what it all meant.
Fast forward to the spring, my maternal grandfather passed away which is why my grandma had stopped by and was visiting (again). My aunt was a witness to my visceral reactions when she was communicating with us at the hospital. I had begun to question everything and actively pursue the truth of every nuance that I encountered from people, to places, to things. I was tapped in.
All of these pivotal moments made me take stock of my life.
I decided I wanted a more spiritually fulfilling life where I could pursue my spiritual arts faculties and other sides of life in a more supportive environment. I was being called to dramatically change my life and how I was living. While I loved New York, my time was coming to an end and I knew it so I had to devise a plan to leave the city I had loved for so long. I proceeded to quit my high paying lucrative full time job of almost four years (with no backup plan). No sooner I did this I landed a four day a week freelance gig to get me through the summer and at this time I started reading tarot to friends and even got paid at bars for it.
I was starting to open up about my experience with the other side to my friends who were supportive (they referred to it as coming out period) but it was challenging too because it was not as if they could really relate. I only met one other medium, Calise Simone in passing at the time (at a nail salon). I knew I had unique gifts but didn't know if this was just happening to me or if / how I could channel for others. What did this all mean? How could I trust my intuition while also leveraging it to help those around me? Why was this happening now?
I had always been into astrology or psychic phenomena, mystery etc. but maybe was masked by me practicing religion for so long. I would go to mass weekly and loved ritual but felt no true connection to the community - only to my interpretation of spirit or what some would call "God" or a higher power. I believe we all have that connection and essentially is our well that we dip into. We have the answers within - external can help us navigate but we answer to ourselves at the end of every day and usually throughout the day too ; ).
I never thought I could do what I did but ultimately I had no choice. When your soul calls you to make leaps of faith - no matter how scary or daunting they seem at the time or how crazy, sometimes you have to throw caution to the wind and do it. The point is, if your soul calls - you answer. There really is nothing else you can do. It was not an easy path but I wouldn't trade my experience for the world and I've learned tremendous things about life in such a short time. I didn't follow the societal script that is spoon fed to us by the mass media.
You don't have to go with the grain - you can choose your own path.
Halloween will mark five years since I took a one way to LA and it's been quite the adventure. I've lived in a few different places, worked at various companies (writing, online streaming doing Tarot readings and Ecommerce) in addition to my own entrepreneurial and creative endeavors. I had a brand line that I created and sold products in markets and online. I have read cards for people at shows too but prefer to write. I've learned a lot about myself, the world, business, friendship, love, lust, and trusting the process.
It wasn't until 2020 that I was actually able to make sense of my nonstop journey that started many moons ago. While the journey is nowhere over - I'm excited for entering new life phases and settling in. The point being - you never know unless you try and we all have unique paths to take in life.
I'm still exploring my abilities and finally feel like I'm in a place where conversation of this nature is seemingly normal which is refreshing.
Especially now in the world during a time of unprecedented change, strife, uprising and transforming, if you are finding yourself at a crossroads unsure on where to head next - when is the last time you had a heart to heart with yourself?
Do you get a pull in the leg or tug at your chest that it's time to try something new in your life? Maybe it's time for a rebirth or transformative period. Or perhaps you're having downloads or flashes of insight that need interpretation too.
Sometimes it's the little things that lead us on our path into the biggest journeys of our lives.
The pic below is from the archives and is a hotel room image from April 2015 in Sanibel Island, Florida. I was immediately drawn to it because three women resembled me, my mom and my grandmother (Third, fourth and fifth in from the left). It was a turning point for me that let me know past lives exists and we transform and we keep going on your journeys. They're wearing Manhattan Beach swimsuits which also holds a special meaning for me, here in LA - where I landed.
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Make the most of your life and your journey! We each have a unique path.
What is yours?
